I
pledged several times that I want to get back to the health trail.
Each time, I did... for a day or two.
Why
is it so hard when in the spring it was so easy? I think that's
because I was so successful my brain got the message: “it's easy
Richard, anytime you want to, you can drop a few pounds.”
So
I took a wrong turn, I started to eat shit like there was no
tomorrow. Sugar, fried food, wine and all kind of unhealthy snacks,
just bring it on, I kept getting it down into my system without
regard for my health. If I stay on this trail, I might just go ahead
and book an appointment with my doctor and get back pills for blood
pressure and cholesterol.
Now
it's December and the holiday are just around the corner bringing
more food and drink orgy. I kept telling myself: “I'll wait after
so that I can enjoy myself fully during that time” But I know this
is just a way to excuse myself before putting my health priority
number 24.
One
thing that is very wrong with my previous paragraph: “so that I can
enjoy myself ” I don't need drinks and food to enjoy myself! As a
matter of fact, putting weight on and harming my health make me
depress. So why do it to enjoy myself is beyond me, it's that inner
language that radicalize so easily poor decision. I have to remind
myself that good long term health is a lot more enjoyable than the
short “joy” that bring poor choices. I am responsible for my
health.
I
have been back on the health trail for the past 3 days. Ah ah already
down in the path, no one knew. I didn't want to post about it because
I didn't want to put pressure on myself.
This
time around I'll do one more thing, I'll do like what Natalie used to
do, I'll do a daily report card where I'll display for the whole wide
world viewing elements that I considered a problem for me to stay
healthy.
Report
card for Dec 3rd
Bread
– 1 Tortilla
Water
– 1 bottle
Wine
– None
Sugar
– None (isn't it sweet?)
Fried
– half of a small size
Unhealthy
Snacks – None
Walk
– over 10 K
Final
Score: A -
My boyfriend (not naming names) has a simple calendar on the fridge: all the days of the month separated in 2. He puts in a green check mark on one half if he went to the gym, a green check mark on the other half if he made healthy food choices, and a red "x" on either half if he has failed.
ReplyDeleteIt doesn't feel good to get lots and lots of 'X's in a row, so it helps him stay motivated not to get into an unhealthy streak. But an 'X' or 2 is not the end of the world, so that makes it easier to deal with special days and meals.
Your daily report card will probably be just as good a motivator!
-WWE
Your will-remain-nameless boyfriend had a whole week of red X when I was over, maybe I am a bad influence :-)
DeleteI'm slowly climbing back on the healthy wagon too. I don't want to do my report card though... that would make me too accountable...
ReplyDeleteGo for those steps Natalie, after climbing some you will get momentum :)
DeleteYes the report card is an accountable tool, yesterday if it had not been for today's report card, I would have had wine... sigh
Hahaha, on your bucket list.
ReplyDeleteThanks for sharing this journey with us.