Wednesday, March 25, 2015
Testing: Chips and Chocolate
Yesterday night I had chips and chocolate!
In the cupboard we had an opened box of Julienne (chips) bought in January. They were stale, I didn’t care; I was doing a test. I put a small portion in a bowl, sprinkled some vinegar on them, and proceeded to move them from the bowl to my mouth. As far as tasting sensation goes; nothing unexpected, doesn’t mater the amount of vinegar you put on, stale chips are stale chips. But I was not looking for an orgasmic type of sensation… I was doing a test!
After a few trips from the bowl to my mouth, I ended the test and concluded it was successful. I didn’t need to finish the bowl.
In the cupboard we also had a bag of chocolate covered almonds. Nine of those are worth 220 calories. They were as fresh as if I had picked them up myself in the morning. I took five and didn’t even bother to select the five biggest one.
After eating three, my test was done, I didn’t have to suffer and eat any more. I was satisfied and concluded the first part of my test was over.
What kind of diabolic test is that you might be wondering?
In the past two months, I have commented on other blogs saying “Have faith in yourself”. However it’s easier said than done.
How could I give this advice without doing it myself? Since I came back toward the “healthy light”, I haven’t trusted myself. What I’m doing is abstinence. I didn’t trust myself for making the right decision so I just ignored my desires and moved on. This is NOT dealing with the issues! I have a control issue; I can’t drink or eat bad stuff in moderation.
Abstinence is easy to do when you are in a controlled environment. In Florida, my wife and I are pretty much our own social circle right now, there are no temptations. It’s about to change.
I have to learn to have faith in myself. This is why I had chips and chocolate. It has been on my mind for a few days and I kept delaying the test. Now that the test is over with, I’ll go back to abstinence but I trust myself to do the right thing when I’ll be faced with choices.
I know one occasion is not a lifetime commitment but I’m working on fixing my food control issue and it’s a lot harder to accomplish than losing weight. The next test will be with my in-laws next week and around a fire with friends during the coming 6 months. I’ll see how I perform.
I am conscious that if I don’t deal with the issue, I’ll lose weight and I’ll gain it right back!
Do you have faith in yourself?