Monday, April 6, 2015
Was everyone good at Easter? Maybe it’s the 43 grams of chocolate I had yesterday but this morning my mind is pulling me in so many directions; it’s like doing a split, but splitter I am not! So I’ll go back to the foundation of this lean(er) tower. This week, I’ll keep building up my tower.
“Talk the Talk, Walk the Walk” - Twenty four hours a day, I walk the walk.
I mentioned in earlier posts that my problem with food was one of moderation. This was the whole truth and nothing but… however I realized it was not that whole to start with. Maybe my sub-conscious mind was trying to hide the whole truth from me! However I realized I had addictions. Some of those were extreme and some were light, but an addiction is still an addiction.
I was addicted to sugar. Most days I ate two desserts and some sweets during the evening after I fed my addiction to chips.
I was addicted to wine. A glass of wine was never enough, I over drank almost every two days, sometimes more often. I’m lucky, I was not dependant but still
too much of something it’s never a good thing.
I was addicted to fries. I must have had French fries 2-3 times a week. It was the food I turned to when I wanted a side dish of vegetable!
I was addicted to TV. I was watching over 7 hours a day. I had no time to exercise, let’s face it; the commercials were just not long enough for me to step outside and walk. So I stepped to the cupboards and the fridge.
You know what is great about the previous paragraphs? “I was”
When I started my journey to health, I didn’t have a clear path in front of me, I didn’t have a map to a healthy me, I didn’t have a good knowledge of food, healthy or otherwise. I didn’t read books about dieting or lifestyle eating habits. I never told myself, I’ll cut sweet, wine, fries and watched less TV.
But on the very first day, my lifestyle changed because my plan is to eat less, eat healthier and exercise. This plan is a drastic lifestyle change (this is where I walk the walk). It’s not a “get 10 pounds off” fast scheme.
It’s hard to explain this transformation; the only analogy I can think of is my weight is like I am on top of a hill and I need to get down from it. I am going down and I have this truck pushing me, I have no other choice but go down, I will never go back up. The hill is so steep, I can’t see the bottom. At one point, I don’t even need gas as I am still getting momentum.
The gas is my brain, it is silent and it’s not trying to sabotage me. Because it’s keeping quiet I have peace or as Lori Lori put it, I am calm about Food.
So my philosophy is to let go, just keep going down the hill. I don’t need brakes; I have my vehicle in perfect control. I let go of the gas but I know at some point at the bottom, gas will be required to continue my journey, so while I’m going down, I’m also working on the most important aspect of this journey: My brain!
In the next posts, I’ll come back in details, so stay tune!
Thanks folks for reading, maybe you don’t know but you are part of this pushing truck!